what happens to girls when they grow up?

   Horny.  Horny.  Horny.  I am constantly horny.  Looking at every girl in sight.  No shame.  Visualization.  Walking.  And looking.  Looking and walking.  Where am I going?  Trying to look down girls tops.  Trying to relax.  Trying to stay away from the phoniness of it all.  Trying.  Trying.  Trying.  Broadsgetting older and more bitter.  Harsher.  Uglier.  They need to be nurterers.  Allow them to be nurterers.  Do not force them into the bitterness and the phoniness.  Babies.  Lisa’s back hurts.  I feel for her.  Women experiencing a lot during pregnancy.  Men experiencing nothing…except for women’s experience. 

  FUCKING IDIOTS EVERYWHERE.  SAME PHONINESS.  Block out the bullshit.  Grow.  Learn.  Grow.  Write.  Write.  Write.  Life.  Live.  Mom is beautiful.  Getting older.  Losing her teeth?  Hope not.  Women?  Trying so hard.  Perfume.  Cream.  Sunglasses.  Holt Renfrew.  New shoes.  Purses.  Jewellery.  Make-up.  Phony dogs.  New jackets.  Yapping.  Yapping.  Yapping.  Trying so hard to get noticed.  Yorkville.  Granite Club.  Clubs.  Clubs.  Clubs.  Parties.  Champagne.  ALL BULLSHIT.  Where did the nurturing go?  Our society is so fucked up.  Phony.  No one is real anymore.  The Starbuck’s girl is real.  She has to be.  But what happens when girls grow up?  Hard.  Bitter.  Harsh.  ACTORS?  FUCKING PHONY ACTORS.  Everywhere.  Models and style and bullshit.  I WANT REAL.  Where have all the real people gone?  Nothing is real anymore.  LISA IS THE BEST.  I LOVE HER.  Women…you go for losers-you end up with losers.  They are all over the place.  Put out a vibe.  You get one back.  I hate this fucking industry.  So many fucking idiots.  GIRLS and MEN.  All they talk is about is men, clothes, and clubs, and rings, and dogs, and MEN.  FUCK THEM.  Young girls are at least naïve and cute.  They aren’t funny.  Except Lisa.  Boiling up.  Thinking.  Boiling.  HOT.  Phony men.  Phony women.  Phoniness everywhere.  Boring stories about politically correct boring people.  Where is Eugene?  Movie star?  Are you kidding me?  I’ve never seen you in my life.  WHO ARE YOU?  I HATE MEN!!!  Yeah right.  Turn over and spread your legs and I’ll fuck you.  And leave you.  And talk badly about you.  And write about you.  Women…so easy.  So annoying.  Country women are so much more REAL.  I LOVE WOMEN FROM SMALL TOWNS.  LISA…I LOVE YOU.