fuck everyone who does not aspire to be free.

I can no longer take the abuse.  the lies.  the refusal to look in the mirror.  the lack of fire.  the lack of purpose.  the neediness.  the abuse once again.  do not pit my daughter against me.  i have done lots of wrong in my life but I refuse to give in to the neediness.  i do my best to juggle life and friends and responsibilities and passions but do not ever drag me down to your mundane life.  your lack of passions.  your lack of purpose.  this is called abuse and I will not take it any longer.  i can walk away now but DO NOT TALK BADLY ABOUT ME TO MY DAUGHTER.  DO NOT TALK DOWN TO ME IN FRONT OF MY DAUGHTER.  DO NOT PLAY THE VICTIM.  i refuse to give in to your neediness.  i cannot fix you no more than I can fix my Mom.  i am tired and have only twenty good years left on this planet.  do not drag me down.  walk away and better your life.  prove me wrong.  do it.  i will applaud you but I will also respect you and vote for you while chasing your dream.  i do not understand why people feel the need to shoot me down.  put me down.  drag me down.  i am a man filled with passion.  filled with a hunger for life.  a hunger for love.  a hunger for connection.  a hunger for love once again.  my life is already filled with guilt and shame and I definitely do not need more.  i also refuse to see more psychologists and psychiatrists.  especially ones with a feminist agenda.  a feminist agenda filled with phoniness and blame.  accept your flaws.  accept the truth.  i will no longer look in the eyes of old washed up therapists who tell me what is wrong with my life while sitting in an old shack in the middle of nowhere and preaching the same bullshit that Jesus preached a thousand years ago.  the world has changed and I refuse to be guilt ridden.  i refuse to be affected by your judgements and anger. your lies and deception.  I AM A GOOD MAN.  AN HONEST MAN.  A REAL MAN WITH REAL NEEDS AND REAL WANTS.  I WILL TAKE WHAT IS MINE AND WILL NO LONGER HAVE PASSENGERS.  MOVE OUT OF MY MOTHERFUCKING WAY AND LET ME BREATHE.  LET ME DRINK.  LET ME CONVERSE.  LET ME LIVE!!!!!
I will go to bed alone once again but I will no longer feel guilt and shame.  I will figure out life much easier without the burden of my second mother in the way.  i will listen to few and fuck even fewer but I will love more and be engaged longer.  i will die a free man. a happy man.  a real man.  an angry man.  an angry man who will no longer cave in to the bullshit.  the phoniness.  the lies.  the boredom.  the boredom of boring towns filled with boring people talking about the same societal boring issues.
FUCK EVERYONE WHO DOES NOT ASPIRE TO BE FREE.
FUCK EVERYONE WHO LIES.
FUCK EVERYONE WHO IS PHONY.
FUCK EVERYONE WHO DRAGS OTHERS DOWN.
FUCK THE DULL.
AND FUCK YOU!!!