without family what do you have?

busy mind continuing to be busy. constantly wondering if I am on the right meds. constantly wondering if I need meds. have only worked once or twice this year. money slowly draining. purpose waning. life continuing. wars raging. covid dissipating. opinions growing. anger flourishing. love sliding. human connection disappearing. life continuing. eyes blurry. hair falling. wrinkles growing. anxiety exploding. meditating daily. running daily. walking Murphy daily. daily routine creating daily drudgery. daily thoughts. daily hopes turning to deadly dreams. deadly thoughts turning into a deadly life.

slow down and smell the roses. smell the roses and breathe life into a loveless world filled with lackluster connections and lackluster fun. longing for the 60’s to return. were the 60’s a good era? longing for free thinking and free beer. free sex and free food. free people and free love. human beings are human no matter where they are from. nationalism becoming sickening and scary. a human life is precious no matter where that life is from. i have more in common with Russians and Ukrainians than I do with many Canadians. with social media we should be connecting more with all human beings but instead we fight and bicker over silly things while kids are laying on the ground bloodied and motherless. sick leaders putting human beings in front of their sick minds. human shields for their sick minds and sick lives. life is so precious. life is so short. human connection is most important to me and yet I linger around a small town walking a small dog.

Muhammad Ali was right in refusing to fight in a war that made absolutely no sense. why don’t the leaders who create these wars put on their military outfits and fight?

i want to live with creative people on a creative island with creative minds and loving hearts. I want to live in a dirty loft with dirty people who have dirty minds. i want to live life to it’s fullest. i prefer great conversation with fantastical ideas over boring talks about politics and covid and shitty jobs with shitty bosses and shitty taxes.

WHAT DO YOU THINK?

WHAT DO YOU FEEL?

ARE YOU OKAY?

DO YOU NEED A HUG?

TELL ME ABOUT YOU?

REALLY TELL ME ABOUT YOU?

WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM LIFE?

DO YOU HATE GETTING OLDER?

DO YOU MISS YOUR YOUTH?

DO YOU TRY TO BE YOUTHFUL AND THEN FEEL THE ACHES AND PAINS OF AGE?

DO YOU MISS ANYONE FROM YOUR PAST?

HOW WAS YOUR CHILDHOOD?

coming of age stories are my favourite.

curiosity is a lost human attribute in a world that is at our fingertips. silly videos making people millions while real artists with real hearts and real souls work three jobs and live in shitty apartments with shitty landlords. costs rising. wages declining. time speeding. life disappearing. hopes fading. stuck in an intellectual prison and open heart. feelings always more important than thought…for me. think less and feel more…for me. we need others to think more and feel less. authentic self.

choices. choices when young can help or hurt you when you are old.

life.

the school of life is not taught at school.

“where does the time go?” NINA SIMONE.

i may stop watching tv altogether. nothing on tv excites me. i want to talk. i want to listen. i want to feel. i want to love. i want to be present and i want to smile. i also want to laugh. i even want to cry but I don’t want anyone else to die.

life is moving along.

life continues.

boredom can turn to trauma in an instant.

life is a never ending wave.

breathe.

love.