pimples and pharmaceuticals.

Boxed up. tired. a sore pimple on the inside of my nose. hungover. weening off meds. weening off society. weening of my addiction to self help books and self help gurus. I AM ME. I DON’T NEED TO CHANGE ME. I AM ME. I DON’T NEED TO CHANGE ME. I AM ME. I DON’T NEED TO CHANGE ME. a lifetime of trying to please and trying to fit in has brought me nowhere and brought me very little. little money. little pleasure. little house. little luck. we are a society built on “not being enough” and not being…can’t think of anything else at the moment. daily ads. daily smiles. daily self help gurus telling us how to live and how to be successful. fake caring human beings running billion dollar businesses and talking a billion dollar game with a billion dollar smile and a billion dollar confidence. but really having nothing to say nor nothing to play. rehashed self help books from old rehashed coaches from long ago. THE AMERICAN DREAM. hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha

FUCK THEM ALL AND CREATE. CREATE FROM THE HEART. CREATE FROM THE GUT. CREATE FROM THE BALLS. CREATE FROM THE CUNT. DON’T CREATE FROM THE BUSINESS MIND AND DON’T CREATE WITH A BOARDROOM OF UNINSPIRED PRODUCERS AND UNINSPIRED SCRIPT SUPERVISORS. FOR ALL THE SUPERVISING WHY ARE THERE SO MANY SHITTY SCRIPTS AND SHITTY MOVIES???

DO NOT WRITE FOR THE MASSES. DO NOT WRITE FOR THE SHEEP. DO NOT WRITE FOR KIDS. LET KIDS WRITE FOR KIDS. LET KIDS BE KIDS. FUCK DULL PARENTS AND DULL RULES. TIK TOK IS THE LATEST DISTRACTION OF USELESSNESS. FACEBOOK AND INSTAGRAM HAVE BORED US TO DEATH AND NOW WE NEED ANOTHER SOCIAL MEDIA BOREDOM. does the average person have that much time to waste that they watch shitty videos and make shitty comments? get outside and enjoy the weather. get outside and enjoy people one on one. talk. discuss. engage. flirt. fuck. drink. do drugs. discuss life. discuss current events and discuss family life and family love. WHY WATCH TIK TOK VIDEOS FOR CHEAP LAUGHS AND CHEAP THRILLS?

sitting here at the computer waiting for my daily Metamucil intake to kick in. FUCKING PHARMACEUTICAL DRUGS!!! BUSINESS OVER HUMANITY. ALWAYS BUSINESS OVER HUMANITY. WHY DO WE ELECT USELESS LEADERS AND ALLOW USELESS LAWS? ARE WE JUST PATHETIC SHEEP FOLLOWING RULES AND LAWS THAT, IF YOU REALLY THINK ABOUT IT, DO NOT SERVE MOST PEOPLE. DAILY STRUGGLES. DAILY MURDERS. DAILY SUICIDES. DAILY LAWSUITS. DAILY SADNESS. DAILY AND DEADLY DISEASES. DAILY ROBBERIES. DAILY FIGHTS. DAILY LETTERS FROM RICH COMPANIES ASKING FOR THEIR DAILY MONEY. DAILY ROBBERY FROM HYDRO COMPANIES. DAILY ROBBERY FROM INSURANCE COMPANIES. DAILY ROBBERY FROM PHONE COMPANIES AND CABLE COMPANIES. DAILY ROBBERY FROM RICH GROCERY OWNERS. DAILY LIES. DAILY DECEPTION. avoid living under “their” rules. speak up and speak out. speak loud and speak proud. use your own mind. use your own heart. use your own soul.

DO NOT BE A PAWN.

DO NOT BE A SHEEP.

DO NOT BE A SNAKE.

we have become a society of nothingness except for wellness and big business. wellness has combined with big business and created ADDICTS. addicts hoping for the next self help trick to work. addicts following twenty three different gurus on their podcasts and their IG accts and Facebook accts. gurus only caring about their lavish lives while reeling in vulnerable lost souls with little hope and little help. lost families. lost lives. lost kids. lost focus. lost passions. lost fire. lost trust. lost and lonely.

YOU ARE GOOD JUST AS YOU ARE. DON’T LET THE SNAKES TELL YOU ANY DIFFERENTLY.

DO NOT BECOME THEM. DO NOT FOLLOW THEM. DO NOT LISTEN TO THEM.

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO DO?

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE?

WHO DO YOU WANT TO LOVE?

WHO DO YOU WANT TO FUCK?

WHO DO YOU WANT TO READ?

WHO DO YOU WANT TO DRINK WITH?

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO DRINK?

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO EAT?

delve inwards and stop boring dull people talking about boring dull things IMMEDIATELY!!!

NO LONGER BE FORCED TO SIT FOR AN HOUR TALKING TO SOMEONE ABOUT NOTHING.

time wasters.

fuck them. politely. politely fuck them.

i am still tired.

i am still hungover.

i am still waiting for my Metamucil to kick in.

i am still waiting for the pimple inside my nose to stop hurting.

i am still trying to ween off zoloft.

i am still trying to be clear.

but today I will be me and sit in whatever shit I am dealing with today.

i will sit with this shitty feeling.

i will not try to run my way out of it.

sit.

create.

maybe masturbate.

censorshop is awful.