energized and tired. oxymoron. looking forward to running today. missed a whole week. looking forward to walking with Murphy. spending time with Murphy. construction work yesterday and it was on a big site. not my scene. too loud. too dusty. too much testosterone. too many boring conversations about boring topics and boring performances of those boring topics. hard hats required. zits on my head. zits on my forehead. long day and long drive. solution?
DOGME 95.
make my film.
how can i make my film?
who can help me make my film?
a small team of passionate artists.
i will look at this today.
make this a priority today.
touch base with alfred today.
ABANDONED.
“if you don’t get love from your family, who do you get it from?”
continue reading the LOW SELF ESTEEM book.
continue to look at and work on my performance anxiety issues.
keep showing up.
challenge the status quo.
make films inexpensively.
tell stories.
ART.
CREATE.
FUCK THE SYSTEM.
the system creates cookie cutter boredom that the sheep of our society drool over. embarrassing.
WE ARE A DEPRAVED AND DULL SOCIETY AND WE DON’T EVEN KNOW IT.
write and create.
notanotherphony. 