terrible sleep. murphy restless. whining. all night movement. all night crying. all night panting. up on the bed. off of the bed. up. off. let him outside four or five times. still whining in the morning. i knew it was a bad idea to leave him alone for six hours while we visited my mom. i allowed others to make the decisions and like most other family decisions it was the WRONG ONE.
LISTEN TO MY GUT.
LISTEN TO ME.
TRUST ME.
I am too tired to write.
too tired to think.
stay focused.
stay sharp.
INSPIRE MY WAY.
LEAD MY WAY.
BE ON FIRE.
COMMIT.
DO.
GET SHIT DONE.
OR DON’T GET SHIT DONE.
BE A SHIT DISTURBER.
good dinner with my mom yesterday. she doesn’t listen and loves attention from others but she means well and is happy that family are with her. she loves Taylor so much and only wants love or attention back. sad seeing people you love slowly starting to die. someone i’ve known my WHOLE LIFE and they will be gone soon and never to see them again. so sad. so weird. so random.
random thoughts.
sad feelings.
she’s not lived a fabulous life but she has made the most of it and has temporary happiness and temporary healthiness.
HAPPY 85TH BIRTHDAY MOM.
LOVE YOU.
notanotherphony. 