it’s dark outside.
6am.
monday morning blues but i no longer get the monday morning blues. my weekends are NOT filled with fun and excitement.
more work.
more dread.
more stress.
i am, actually, excited for mondays so i can make money. i can no longer afford days off.
the adderall seems to be working. i am more focused and more hopeful due to the increased focus.
i am on a low dose of 5mg.
i should try upping my dose to 10mg this week.
i always worry about the side effects when the drug wears off later in the day.
bad headaches.
face pulsating.
face flushed.
but desperate times call for desperate measures.
innovation in technology has brought about less humanity. more phoniness. more plastic product. less human product.
less heart.
less soul.
i refuse to buy in.
i refuse to buy in to fake and phony. fake and phony people delivering fake and phony product.
FUCK THEM.
be real.
be honest.
be human.
listen and love.
love and listen.
fuck if you want to but don’t hurt people.
connect with people NOT devices.
another day and another opportunity to bring positivity to the world.
another day to bring positivity to people.
we have one life to live.
I NEED TO REMEMBER THAT.
notanotherphony. 