senokot last night.
waiting for the results today.
too many pills for too many ailments.
weening off is the answer.
slowly but surely.
surely slowly.
“you can do this.”
“yes we can.”
“you got this.”
“yes you can.”
“JUST DO IT.”
“only the good die young.”
“time is now.”
SNOW OUTSIDE.
i don’t feel like shovelling.
i don’t feel like working.
i don’t want to wake up at 3am anymore.
i will continue to be aware.
continue to observe.
why am i anxious about shovelling snow today?
one more day.
one more night.
one more week.
one more month.
one more year.
one more decade.
DEAD.
DON’T WISH YOUR LIFE AWAY.
do things that make you happy.
don’t lessen the blow.
don’t let the leaders drag you down.
what excites you?
DO IT.
full day of work today?
dreams of work.
why?
my eyes are blurry.
my body is uncertain.
“watson…let’s get to the bottom of this once and for all.”
jack tait sits alone in his rocking chair drinking jack daniels from the bottle and watching nothing.
he watches nothing.
he listens to nothing.
he sits and drinks.
drinks and sits.
peace and quiet has finally come.
he hears the birds chirping but he doesn’t hear cars.
he doesn’t hear sirens.
he doesn’t hear screaming kids.
or barking dogs.
he is catatonically happy and content.
he sits.
he drinks.
he listens.
he breathes.
he is.
i am.
jack tait.
notanotherphony. 