review – notanotherphony.

i survived another sleep without nightmares. without having to go pee. without falling off the bed. mornings are good. mornings are quiet.

aside from the sore feet and sore knee i wake up happy and with some sense of hope that today is going to be a better day than the last.

i take a sip from my coffee mug. the coffee tastes great. the mug says, “DAD.”

i stop thinking and start feeling.

i feel.

i feel the love of my daughter and the love for my daughter. she bought me that mug. she is a great kid…adult now. time flies. she is thriving out west and i am soooo happy for her. the phone calls to her and from her have been less and less each week and i guess that is how life works. she’s becoming independent. she’s meeting great friends. she is happy and vibrant and filled with a HUGE sense that she belongs and SHE IS RIGHT.

SHE BELONGS.

SHE BELONGS IN SUCH A BIG WAY.

SHE NOT ONLY BELONGS SHE IS NEEDED IN THESE TIMES OF HATRED AND GREED.

taylor has a huge heart.

taylor has so much empathy.

taylor is passionate.

taylor is engaging.

taylor is smart.

taylor is beautiful.

taylor LOVES EVERYONE.

taylor is a human being.

WE NEED MORE HUMAN BEINGS IN THIS WORLD AND LESS GREED.

LESS CORRUPT LEADERS.

LESS CORRUPT SYSTEMS.

LESS PROPAGANDA.

LESS WARS.

LESS MURDERS.

LESS OPINIONS FROM THE UNINFORMED AND UNREAD.

FIGHT THE POWER.

FEEL THE LOVE.

DAD.

i take another sip of my coffee while murphy sleeps at my feet and my wife snores in the other bedroom.

it is 5:30am

nine days since the last time i wrote. nine long days on set. working on a shitty product that most take seriously. lots of money but no artistic ability. the world is filled with them. stuffy nose. aching back. lots of wine. lots of food. working long hours leads to lack of exercise. lack of healthy eating. lack of life. lack of structure. lack of love. lack of family. lacking in art. lacking in life.

big pockets filled with big money.

just like BIG signs for real estate agents.

and big signs for mayoral candidates.

BIGGER means louder and more money with more confidence but it rarely means better product. hollywood is filled with frauds who believe their own hype.

the real artists with real things to say about life are filled with demons and insecurities and booze and drugs and, yet, must somehow break through.

grammar and rules.

rules and fools.

tools.

blues.

booze.

mules.

big poos.

loud moos.

everything comes in twos.

and nothing is found in zoos.

back to the grind tomorrow but I have one day to be creative today.

set aside some time.

breathe.

meditate.

read.

run.

have fun.

fun in the sun.

this is the best time of the year.

sore belly.

shitty food and too much booze.

slow down.

smell the coffee.

see my family.

read and write.

CREATE.

FILM.

be aware.

be alive.

be present.

be real.

be loving.

be caring.

be empathetic.

be happy.

be sad.

be authentic.

don’t listen to them.

make my own choices and my own decisions.

i have made many bad ones over the years.

can i still trust myself?

“to be or not to be. that is the question.”