empathy?

“you can’t choose your family but you can choose your friends.”
  facebook is great at revealing who people really are.  what they are really about.  really delving into the “real” person behind the fake posts.  stupid posts by stupid people.  geeky posts by geeky people.  religious posts by religious people.  phony posts by phony people.  and finally after all the shit boring posts you get the real posts by real people.
  we live in a world where phoniness is rewarded and being real is lambasted.  a world filled with shame based judgements from boring people living boring lives.  not caring but pretending to care.  not listening but pretending to listen.  not reading but pretending to read.  DUMB POSTS FOR DUMB PEOPLE.  DON’T BOO JUSTIN BIEBER.  APPLAUD KATE MIDDLETON.  “I HAVE MORNING SICKNESS.”  WHO FUCKING CARES???  KIM KARDASHIAN’S WEDDING GETS MORE PLAY THAN THE POOR DYING STARVING BOYS AND GIRLS IN SUDAN.  WHAT IS WRONG WITH US?  WHAT HAS HAPPENED?
  I SPEAK TRUTH.  MY TRUTH.  NOT GOD’S.  NOT MOM’S.  NOT DAD’S.  NOT TEACHERS’.  NOT PRIME MINISTERS’.  NOT PRESIDENTS’.  I SPEAK MY TRUTH.  MY BELIEFS AND I AM CHASTISED FOR IT.  HERE’S A THOUGHT…DON’T READ MY FUCKING POSTS.  MY FUCKING BLOG. 
  i get molested by some old greek man.  no sympathy.  i get thrown in jail.  no sympathy.  i get “jerked off” by an old hockey coach.  no sympathy.  i have a family member die and another family member die right after and another family member attempt to kill herself right in front of my face.  no sympathy.  i have babysitter after babysitter after babysitter while just a boy of ten.  eleven.  twelve.  thirteen.  no sympathy.  i get arrested (wrongfully) for telling a useless “do gooder” mcdonald’s manager that i will “ski off your forehead if you don’t leave me alone”.  no sympathy.  i get pulled over for speeding.  my name comes up on the cop’s monitor…”VIOLENT” (WHY).  no sympathy.  don jail.  toronto east.  mimico.  north bay alcohol centre.  a.a.  psychiatrists.  psychologists.  psychotherapists.  pills.  diagnosis’.  adhd.  intermittent explosive personality disorder.  anxiety disorder.  impulse control disorder.  narcissistic personality disorder.  waking up drunk in wrong people’s houses.  overdosing on mushrooms.  too much cocaine.  too many drunken nights.  fucking too many girls…mostly unattractive.  no condoms.  STD’S.  LONELINESS.  DEPRESSION.  SADNESS.  ABUSED.  WRONGFULLY ACCUSED.  SHAMED.  MOLESTED.  CRITICIZED (constantly).  MOCKED.  JUDGED.  JUDGED.  JUDGED. NOT SUPPORTED.  THROWN TO THE WOLVES.  “YOUR DAD (DECEASED) WOULD BE DISGUSTED BY YOU.”  ABANDONED.  TORTURED.  HURT.  SELF INFLICTED WOUNDS.  HURT.  HOSPITALIZED.  no sympathy.  facebook exposes real.  it exposes fake. 
  christmas time is here and i will spend my holidays (everyday is a holiday for me) with my two favourite people in the whole wide (wild) world…TRIGGY AND RYLEE…NOT LAURA AND TAYLOR.  UNCONDITIONAL LOVE CONQUERS ALL.  WITHOUT IT YOU (WE) ARE DOOMED.  unless you get it from god which i don’t…so…(tears) I LOVE YOU TRIGGY AND RYLEE AND I OWE MY LIFE’S HAPPINESS TO YOU.  merry christmas.
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ps…for those of you who also love me unconditionally…I HOPE TO DRINK LOTS OF WINE WITH YOU OVER THE NEXT FEW WEEKS AS WELL AS THE MANY YEARS AHEAD.
pss…for those of you who pretend to love me and say, “we really need to get together.  haven’t seen you in awhile (ten years).  it’s the holidays.  let’s hook up.  we need to get together.  IT IS CHRISTMAS!!!”  don’t bother.  i will see you when you become real.