hard-ons and headaches.

I woke up with a hard on as well as a headache.  another great night of fun resulting in pain and anguish twelve hours later.  why is life like that?  to have fun and excitement you must also need pain and more pain.  life has never been fair.  I walked to the bathroom and drank some water out of the tap then I tried to jerk off.  horny but unable.  life rearing it’s ugly head once again.  I flicked on the tv and watched tennis.  I used to play but now I watch.  I also used to play hockey.  soccer.  baseball.  even football for one game.  I quit because I was the best player on both teams but never got the ball.  similar to life now.  the wrong people succeed.  the bosses daughter.  the bosses wife.  the bosses son.  the bosses mistress who pretends that she’s his co-worker friend from many moons ago.  dull average people filling semi-important jobs…nothing is really that important.  Life is one big lie and one big joke.  the second you realize this is the second you begin to have fun and enjoy.
  anyway I watched tennis for a bit.  men’s. I would rather have watched women’s…especially in my horny state.  now that may come across as sexist and you may be indeed right but I am not.  I treat people the way they would like to be treated.  if they are nice.  if they are kind.  then I will be nice. I will be kind.  if they are dirty and pig like then I will treat them as such and then I will be called names by feminists but I DON”T GIVE A RAT’S ASS!!!  NOW DEAL WITH THAT ASSHOLES!!!
  Life is filled with politically correct do-gooders who are much worse than the people they are trying to bring down.  puppets.  clones.  maggots.  tired and lonely but evil and conniving all wrapped up in one big slimy shiny suit of bullshit.  FUCK THEM ALL AND THEN THROW AWAY THE ONE SEMI USED CONDOM FROM THREE YEARS AGO.
  I woke up horny and tired.  dry mouthed and shrivelled faced and pondered life…I also pondered death.  I then finally managed to blow my load into my left hand and flushed it down the sink with hot water.  sweating now.  tired now.  panting now.  hot now.  still dry mouthed now and LONELY.
I flicked channels and thought of my Dad.  I thought of my Mom.  I thought of Taylor and Liz.  I wondered where all the years have gone and then I wondered why some people get paid to design bad parking lots in Toronto.  random thoughts and random emotions.  everything was random.  I looked out the window and saw fog.  I then laid back down.  I miss my family.  I never want to leave them.  the problem with life is that you spend your whole lives with people and then they die and you never see them again.  so sad.  life is so sad.