LOVE.

I can’t begin to tell you how proud I am of Rylee.  She came into this world just over thirteen years ago and she never asked to be part of our family.  kids never really have a choice.  she was brought into our family.  our world.  our chaos.  we all try and do our best but our struggles continue.  our minds betray us.  our emotions hold us hostage.  we live in constant chaos with no plans and very little structure.  we were never taught how to be parents.  one day we were a couple and the next day we have three.  such is life.  some people are natural born parents.  other’s are not.  some learn it from their parents and other’s do not.  the notion that we are all equal with equal opportunities has long ago been discovered as bullshit by me.  some continue to believe it as they continue to struggle but I know better.

so Rylee was born into this and she has persevered.  she has succeeded.  she has endured.  amidst the chaos and fragility Rylee has managed to block it out and move forward.  she graduated from grade 8 this past week and we, like so many other’s, wonder how this time came around so quickly.  one day our kids are in kindergarten and the next day they are ready for high school.  time flies.  but I need time to slow down.  I need to be a parent.  I need to provide Rylee with stability.  stability that I never had.  that I never learned.  that I know is needed and yet it continues to elude me.  why?

Rylee has not had the same upbringing as most of her peers and yet she confidently moves forward taking on all challenges and succeeding in most things.  she always brings a smile to everyone she comes in contact with.  she was a miracle child when she was born and she continues to be one.  she amazes me.

Being an only child has it’s own challenges but being an only child with parents who have their own struggles makes it that more difficult.  But she continues to thrive.  she continues to persevere.  she continues to move forward.  she continues to grow.  she has such a huge heart and an even bigger soul and big things await her.  I am looking forward to seeing her thrive on her next journey.  she deserves everything that comes her way.  she is such a great person who is inclusive, caring, loving, passionate, smart, and beautiful both inside and out.

love.

life.

tree of life.

family.

congrats.

heart.

soul.

I love you more than anything in this world.