the struggle continues. the experiments continue. the lack of quality “mental health experts” who actually care continues. the struggle is left to the one who is struggling. cute ad campaigns like “Bell Let’s Talk” do very little to help the sufferer. suicide rates continue to rise. suicide victims continue to be forgotten. mental health affecting most people but still not being recognized as something serious enough to be taken seriously. a war rages on in Ukraine. innocent lives lost. The Grammy’s continue. The Oscar’s continue. less quality and more award shows. agendas being met but not improving our society. not improving the product. I rarely see old bald white guys in shows. I rarely see old black bald guys in shows. I rarely see old white/black/asian/indigenous women in shows. Hollywood is sick. The followers are sicker. our society is starved. art can be found but one must search. most prefer one minute Tic Tock videos about NOTHING. Influencers and Brand Ambassadors seemingly more important than real art and real people.
ART? NO. ENTERTAINMENT? NO. DULL AND UNINSPIRED PRODUCT. YES.
copycats and fake smiles. fake dresses and fake lips. everything fake. everything dull.
the untethered soul. breathe and allow. let go and open up your heart. open up to give and open up to receive. life moves quickly and, sometimes, life ends before you start living. be present. try to be present. engage in life. engage in love. quit hiding and running. get out of your comfort zones and do what you want. do what makes you happy. grow. grow daily. try to be positive but also try to be real. do not get bogged down by other people. surround yourself with inspiring people if you want to be inspired. open up and listen to other people’s stories. I met an older guy in the steam room yesterday and he told me about his Dad dying when he was only 32 years old. he got hit on the back of his head during a “takedown” and never recovered. he was a cop in York Region. He went to a few doctor’s and was not diagnosed properly and died. the guy I was talking to said he was only 8 at the time. My Dad died when I was 10. he died suddenly from a brain hemorrhage while coaching soccer one night. he was 36. we spoke for awhile about childhood trauma and life and how trauma affects people. we spoke about everyone having some sort of story in their lives. very few have lived perfect lives. the struggle is real and the struggle is everywhere amongst us. be open and listen. YOU ARE NOT ALONE. ask for help. open up to new friends and new experiences. live life and love life. love life even when it is a struggle or even when there is trauma. grieve when you need to grieve. sleep when you need to sleep. exercise when you need to exercise. love. love always. open heart always. human connection is vital. DO NOT HIDE. be silly. don’t let judgements stop you from doing what you want to do. be alive amongst the dull and dying. be free. be curious. be still but also be moving. moving and shaking. playing and loving. open and honest. observe the beauty.
childhood trauma is real but one must work with it and through it in order to have a better life. a happier life. where to start? where to begin? what to do? who to talk to? what medications to take? the answers are endless but the trust and the disappointments are also endless. who to believe and what to believe. what works for one doesn’t work for another. keep searching. keep meditating. keep trying. keep unlocking. keep breaking down walls. keep attacking the fears. keep addressing the issues. keep listening to the body. open up. open up. open up. stop the fear of being hurt. stop the fear of being alone. stop the fear of disappointing. stop the insanity. stop the struggle.
daily routines.
daily disciplines.
daily meditation.
daily exercise.
daily lists.
daily goals.
daily habits.
daily love.
day after day.
week after week. month after month.
year after year.
and then one day you wake up and you’re 55 with no hair and some zits on your face.
life is cruel.
notanotherphony. 