woke up with a sore throat and a stuffy nose. allergies? a cold? covid? who knows? who cares? my body is aching. my back is sore. my stomach is rumbling. my penis is burning. what’s wrong with me? i live alone with my wife and daughter. and dog. i am loved only by my dog. my wife and daughter neglect me. disrespect me. look down on me. avoid me. don’t listen to me. don’t love me. a toxic relationship that is weighing us all down. hiding. putting up walls. pretending. none of this behaviour helps. where is your fire? where is your joy? where is your hope? where are your dreams? what are your dreams? what has happened to you? are you aware of your fear? aware of your hiding? aware of your walls? life doesn’t wait around for anyone. open up. be silly. play. do not worry about opinions from other people. do not worry about looking silly or looking dumb. live. live life. live life to it’s fullest. how to break the pattern? how to break the habit?
CHAOS IS GOOD.
CHAOS IS GROUNDING.
CHAOS KEEPS US ALIVE AND KEEPS US PRESENT.
day 1.
day 2.
day 3.
day 4.
day 5.
day 6.
day 7.
one week.
one month.
one year.
one decade.
one century.
dead bodies.
dead friends.
dead family.
lives lived fully.
lives lived in fear.
dull lives.
dull dreams.
pretending and screaming.
fake laughs. fake joy. struggling inside with a big smile on the outside. a strained smile and a strained relationship.
when will things change?
when will life be happy?
when will you have friends?
when will you have fun?
when will you LIVE?
don’t die while still living. a life unlived is a life forgotten.
forgotten.
sad.
irrelevant.
WAKE UP.
notanotherphony. 