long day on set. great set. too many people employed to do such average work with no heart and no soul. what possessed me to get into this shitty industry? why did i choose this industry? of all the opportunities out there in the world why choose this one?
my shirt is tight.
my belly is flabby and full.
too much shitty food and not enough exercise. tired from a late night and tired of being bored and uninspired. need to tell my stories. want to tell my stories. create. create art my way. my unique way.
THE ONLY WAY.
scattered books and a scattered house.
scattered mind and tired eyes.
do my meds work?
is my issue my environment?
are most people’s issues their environment?
needless wars.
poverty.
rapes.
murders.
illnesses.
stress about bills.
stress about kids.
stress about parents.
boys and girls and a big fat stick.
freedom to choose what we want to do.
freedom to choose what we do.
freedom to fuck up.
freedom to suck up.
freedom to back up.
choices.
endless choices and no direction.
no guidance and no love.
recipe for disaster.
not enough sex.
not enough fun.
not enough excitement.
not enough hope.
not enough human interaction.
UNCONDITIONAL LOVE.
REALLY?
why is there so much love lacking in our family?
why is there so little communication and so much tv?
so many solemn faces and rarely a laugh.
rarely a smile.
rarely a surprise.
rarely a hope.
hope for a better life and a better life and a better life and a better life and a better life.
all work and no play makes jack a dull boy.
notanotherphony. 