cloudy outside today.
murphy at the bottom of my feet.
sara sleeping beside me.
taylor sleeping downstairs.
i think i just heard squirrels or mice running across our roof. peaceful music playing. four days until taylor goes back to school. back to bc. back to her friends and her new life. she’s all grown up now. life moves quickly. thomas, nana’s dog is dying. he’s old. he was our first dog. we had to give him to nana when we moved into a condo downtown. life moves quickly.
i’m going to miss taylor when she goes back to school. she’s such a uniquely great human being. i hope she realizes how wonderful she is. she is such a gift to the world.
i often wonder if i realize my gifts to the world.
do any of us realize our gifts?
do we get “sucked into” the capitalistic way of living? a “GO. GO. GO” mentality of living. never slowing down. never smelling the roses. never enjoying the small moments that life has to offer.
my belly feels flabby.
my nose is stuffed.
my legs feel sore and weak.
the daily struggles of getting older.
but today is a new day.
i will bring love and laughter to life today.
i will choose.
i will open up my heart or i will continue to break down the walls that block my heart. there is a lovely small child in there waiting to jump out. waiting to love life. waiting to bring his unique talents and energies to the world. waiting to bring his laughter and joy. a child who yearns for love and laughter and just a bit of safety and a bit of security.
BRING LOVE.
BRING JOY.
BRING CURIOSITY.
BE ME.
BE FREE.
I LOVE MY FAMILY.
notanotherphony. 