the meds were working great and now they’re not. my head is pounding daily and i can’t sleep. what good is focus if you are too tired to do anything with that focus?
dogs barking.
cars starting.
cars honking.
loud mufflers and loud dogs.
is that dog choking?
does anyone care that the dog outside sounds like it’s choking?
no and i now i hear two dogs barking and choking.
maybe they are having sex.
when do dogs have sex?
babies now crying.
what to do about my meds situation?
what to do about my meds situation?
murphy on edge.
murphy on high alert?
a coffee table full of meds and a floor full of self help books and i need to wake up from my afternoon nap and go to the gym or walk my dog.
i had a shower yesterday so i don’t need one today but if i go to the gym then i can have a steam and a shower.
it is 2pm.
it is sunny.
i am tired and bored.
i am always tired and bored.
what makes me happy i do not really know.
i love my daughter.
i love my wife.
i love my dog.
i love my mom.
i love my brother.
i love my friends.
i bought toilet paper today.
we, completely, ran out this morning.
head still pounding.
what makes me happy?
what makes me happy?
what makes me happy?
the loud noises of the suburbs are annoying.
CARS.
TRUCKS.
DOGS.
KIDS.
PLANES.
LAWN MOWERS.
CAR ALARMS.
RECESS BELLS.
SIRENS.
HAMMERING WALLS.
BOUNCING BALLS.
SCREAMING DOLLS.
SHITTY MALLS.
SUBURBAN SPRAWLS.
AND THAT’S NOT ALL’S.
fucking falls and pinballs.
life…take a deep breath.
notanotherphony. 