another bank notice.
another parking ticket.
morning routine going well.
i go to bed with confidence.
i wake up with worry.
grinding away in jobs that don’t excite me.
booking acting gigs that don’t excite me.
auditions that don’t inspire me.
what is wrong with me?
I
I
I
too many “I’s” and not enough “WE’S”.
human connection is lacking and it is hurting me and i am sure it is hurting others.
today is another new day to start living with inspiration. start living with purpose. start living with passion. start living with fun.
CREATE DON’T WASTE.
wasted time and wasted opportunities.
i didn’t jerk off yesterday.
small victories in a sad life.
“don’t be sad johnny. be happy. don’t worry be happy.”
“why is your hand stroking my penis?”
“SHUT UP AND DON’T SAY ANYTHING!!!”
“you just drove by my house.”
“WE GO ON A LITTLE DRIVE. BIG. YOU BIG.”
“THANKS.”
STROKE.
STROKE.
STROKE.
explosion of white juice into my shorts and on his hand. the old greek man’s hand.
“JOHNNY WHY YOU GO SO FAST??? WHY YO GO SO FAST? WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOYU? WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU? YOU ARE DISGUSTING!!!”
“i’m sorry.”
i open the car door and walk home to an empty house.
i had an orgasm fifteen minutes earlier and now i sit in shame.
DON’T WORRY BE HAPPY.
notanotherphony. 