not a great sleep.
tossing and turning.
shoulders and arms still bothering me.
DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT.
6am.
murphy beside me.
first day of discipline with my habits. with my intentions.
growth.
growth mindset.
a little stuffed up but that usually goes away as the day goes away.
stay focused.
stay disciplined.
stay committed.
i need a massage.
i cannot go on too much longer with my arms and shoulders being so sore. so tight.
it is very peaceful outside at the moment.
triggy’s alarm is going off.
she sets it way too early for herself.
she always hits the snooze button a bunch of times before actually waking up.
i don’t like getting old.
saddens me.
lost youth and lost hair.
lost confidence and lost friends.
aches and pains and fears and constantly stuck in quicksand.
unable to make decisions.
afraid of the results.
afraid of change.
AFRAID.
so i sit in nothingness.
no hobbies.
no friends.
no fun.
dull.
dull town.
dull life.
no hope.
no money.
no plans.
no sex.
no love?
i hate getting old with no money.
MAKE LIFE FUN AGAIN.
create.
ship.
create more.
ship more.
publish my blogs.
publish my books.
stay committed.
stay true to my cause.
what is my cause?
CHALLENGE THE STATUS QUO.
CHALLENGE THE STATUS QUO.
CHALLENGE THE STATUS QUO.
life.
loss.
love.
and then it is over.
loved ones left behind.
loved ones always left behind.
love?
are you there?
or are you buried underground?
notanotherphony. 