a terrible sleep last night.
shoulders in pain.
arms in pain.
is there no way to fix this?
do i have to continue to live in pain?
our healthcare system has crumbled.
why has it gotten so bad?
has it been the years and years of cutbacks?
years and years of letting in too many immigrants too quickly without the infrastructure to match?
there must be a reason.
there must be answers.
why do we never find out the truth?
another shitty audition sent my way.
another hallmark movie.
SICK.
why do we produce such garbage?
who watches such garbage?
i have zero desire to audition for this shit and the producers have zero desire to see me.
i will decline.
too many useless and shitty auditions.
too many useless and shitty shows.
too many fake looking people and too much fake cgi.
this industry should be embarrassed with itself.
COOKIE CUTTER FLUFF.
but nobody calls out this fluff because they don’t want to offend anyone and, potentially, lose work.
why do people watch this shit?
are we bombarded with shit so we watch shit?
sort of like mcdonald’s and pizza pizza and boston pizza and tim horton’s and walmart and the list goes on and on and on.
SHEEP.
SHEEP.
SHEEP.
why is triggy sick again?
i hope that i don’t get sick.
i am on a good kick of feeling better.
starting to exercise again.
knee beginning to feel better.
right medications.
a better daily routine.
a better mindset.
a better focus.
more energy.
more accountability.
FIGHT FOR WHAT I WANT.
FIGHT FOR WHAT I BELIEVE.
BE FIT.
BE ACTIVE.
BE FREE.
BE ME.
see?
i am not so bad after all.
notanotherphony. 