my whole body is in debilitating pain.
you can throw my mind in that category too.
it was a slow progression but when it hit, it hit hard.
not sure of the source of such body pain but i have an idea.
improper footwear that lead to plantar fasciitis and then i overcompensated that injury by putting in one solid insole in my left shoe. i couldn’t find the other insole or i would have put that one in my right shoe.
that fixed the plantar fasciitis but then i began to get knee problems. my right knee was very stiff and very painful and, by the end of the summer, very sore.
my morning routine was fucked.
no running.
no gym.
painful legs.
i would wake up in daily pain.
my first five minutes were the most painful and i was the most stiff. i continued to work as i had no money. i still have no money and i continue to work.
am i alone?
i, then, started a job at the town doing snow removal. the job was easy but lots of sitting around in trucks or driving in shaky sidewalk machines. steel toed boots required. in and out. in and out. in and out of trucks all day.
cheap heavy footwear.
my knee got worse and worse and worse until i could no longer walk.
SEVERE PAIN.
couldn’t sleep at night.
various meds.
various creams.
various stretches.
various advice.
poor solutions from walk in clinics.
my family doctor away on some sort of leave.
more poor solutions from my walk in clinic.
great advice from friends.
“YOU NEED AN MRI.”
i contacted the clinic where my doctor practices and i was able to get an appt with one of the other doctors. she, definitely, knew there was something wrong.
we booked an mri and the results weren’t good.
complex tears and degenerative type things and more tears.
surgery required.
surgery went well.
in and out.
little pain.
swollen knee.
jan 15th.
only one week off of my knee and off of work (need money) and my knee seemed to be healing.
i began exercising again.
i began to work again.
i began physio.
things were, seemingly, positive.
now it’s almost april and my knee is swollen again.
my knee is, somewhat, painful again.
my shoulders and arms are in severe pain.
my legs are in pain.
my lower back is in pain.
i had a DEEP TISSUE MASSAGE yesterday and, hopefully, that is the first step to getting my health back. getting my life back.
i woke up in pain, again, today.
I WILL TAKE IT EASY AND HAVE SOME SORT OF FAITH THAT IT WILL ALL WORK OUT.
I WANT TO RUN.
pain free.
notanotherphony. 