notanotherphony.

leafs won.

drank a lot.

feeling slightly hungover.

hungover and horny.

always hungover and horny.

head is pounding but i will get through this the way that i have always gotten through this.

my belly looks enlarged and feels bloated.

i feel ugly and dirty and tired.

time to get up and enjoy this day.

dog walks and side-eyed looks from my dog will cause stress and anxiety but i will fight through that too.

our world leaders are corrupt and that corruption goes without punishment while people are doing time for car ACCIDENTS that kill people.

CAR ACCIDENTS.

the wrong people are always in charge.

the wrong people are always the RIGHT people.

wrong and right and good and evil and the “haves” and “have-nots” but our world continues.

our society continues.

avoid time wasters.

avoid soul crushers.

avoid rule followers.

avoid YES PEOPLE and SNAKES.

do people still play snakes and ladders?

board games bore me.

boring conversations bore me too.

BORED AND BOARDS.

longboards.

shortboards.

boardshorts.

boarding and boredom.

STOP THE BOREDOM.

DO SOMETHING.

DO ANYTHING.

DO AS OPPOSED TO BE.

BE ME AND DO.

DO OR DIE.

MOVE OR DIE.

BE ACTIVE OR DIE.

CONNECT OR DIE.

CONVERSE OR DIE.

HUMAN CONNECTION OR DIE.

DON’T DIE.

DAD PLEASE DON’T DIE!!!

another long and boring day yesterday.

constant construction going on outside.

companies ripping up our lawns and sidewalks for more internet and more greed.

when does it stop?

the constant chase for money at the expense of everything else.

family neglect.

health neglect.

spiritual neglect.

humanity neglect.

FUCK THESE PIGS.

I HOPE THEY ALL ROT IN HELL.

i was on a kick of lessening my drinking but that lasted two frustrating days and now i am back to normal.

normal and semi happy.

wine and beer (good beer) my drinks of choice.

gin.

tequila.

bourbon.

whiskey.

these work too.

i am soon to be sixty years old and my job opportunities have lessened drastically.

i hardly get a sniff when applying for jobs.

my resume is scattered and disjointed the same way that my brain is scattered and disjointed.

i don’t need much money but enough to be stable in an unstable world.

choose wisely.

choose with your heart and less with your brain.

FIGHT.

FIGHT.

FIGHT.

FIGHT THE POWERS THAT BE.

walk slowly and carry a big stick.

only the good die young.

WHY?

WHY IS THAT?

god you are not listening.

daily improvements.

daily grounding.

daily exercise.

daily meditation.

daily gratitude.

daily work on coming to terms with the past to accept my fate and allow me to live free of past traumas.

allow.

accept.

gratitude.

help people heal.

one life to live.

live fully.

love life with all of it’s ups and downs.

heal myself in order to heal relationships.

know my strengths.

know my worth.

GO BIG.

GO FULLY.

LEAN INTO THE WORK.

LEAN INTO MY STRENGTHS.

improve myself daily.

daily growth.

growth mindset.

connect daily.

HUMAN CONNECTION.

connect with my friends daily.

connect with my family daily.

connect with my mom about life.

stories about life.

real people.

real stories.

real emotions.

notanotherphony.

back on my meds.

feeling more clear despite the pounding head.

more hopeful.

fifty-seven years old and still learning.

still growing.

despite financial issues and financial struggles I am doing my best to be healthy.

healthy mind and healthy body.

taking my struggles and taking my trauma and trying to put them to good use.

SIGNS.

AWARENESS.

sore body and blurry mind is telling me that things are out of whack.

out of sync.

learning to be more grateful.

learning to be more aware.

LOVE.

LOVE.

LOVE.

CONNECT.

CONNECT.

CONNECT.

the human heart.

human connection.

be open.

be vulnerable.

exercise daily.

meditate daily.

stretch (yoga) daily.

daily habits.

small changes daily.

personal commitment to being a much better human being.

I ALWAYS CHOOSE LOVE OVER HATE.

FIND THE GOOD.

FIND THE POSITIVE IN THE NEGATIVE.

don’t beat myself up.

learn and grow.

likes.

dislikes.

keep breathing.

keep writing.

keep loving.

I AM BALD…SO WHAT???

how to make more money doing authentic and positive work!!!

notanotherphony.

still worried and concerned over every little zit that i get.

why?

why do i still get zits?

i am 57 years old.

i thought zits were for teenagers.

my eyes are burning.

I AM STUFFED UP.

i tend to get colds more than others. just minor irritating colds.

my body is mangled but i continue to work through it. i continue to try and figure it out.

massage or osteopath? that is the question of the day.

i can’t remember the last time that i bought new clothes. i have been wearing the same clothes for the last five years. maybe longer.

so many wants and so many needs but never enough money.

STUCK IN A MIRROR WITH YOU.

STUCK.

STUCKLESS – PREDATOR.

mind is jumbled.

mind is jambled.

mind is unpredictable.

breathe.

relaxation.

yoga.

i know what to do and, yet, i often do not do it.

why?

meditate daily.

simple task.

do it.

i love to exercise. do it.

i love to be physical. do it.

i love to sweat. do it.

exercise and sweating leads to calmness and clarity.

slow down.

feel.

really feel.

see.

really see.

acknowledge.

really acknowledge.

time is wasting away.

time keeps on slipping slipping slipping into the future.

I NEED A FANTASTIC RUN AT ISLAND LAKE.