great sleep but woke up tired. stuffed up and with a foggy mind.
“pills. are you helping at all?”
quick coffee then off to the dentist. when i was younger i was terrified of the dentist. dr. bellman and his loud drill would give me nightmares. afraid. scared. fearful. now i enjoy going. new dentist with new hygienists. cute even behind their covid masks. getting horny as the young girl sticks her fingers in my mouth. does anyone else get the same feeling? everywhere i go i get turned on by women. dirty thoughts but never acting on those thoughts. i was once single, free, alive, and horny. now i am old, married, bored, living in a dull town and, yet, I AM STILL HORNY.
i feel sick.
i feel horny.
why do girls treat each other so poorly? so “catty”. so insecure. trying desperately to meet guys. impress guys. desperately trying at the expense of their friendships and living on edge and in fear. i have never played that game. i have never put women on pedestals. some are great. many are great for fucking. fucking and sucking and partying and more fucking and more sucking. most guys are dull. most guys are chasing women and chasing money while pumping iron and pumping their weak ego’s. such peasants. such bores. where are the exciting people? where are the real writers? where are the real artists? where are the real musicians? where are the real shit disturbers?
still feel like shit. still…still. be still.
observe.
listen.
allow.
accept.
ACCEPT ME AND BE FREE.
free heart. free soul.
remind me, again, why we are living in a dull town when there are endless possibilities out in the world?
endless possibilities.
endless beauty.
orangeville? really?
WHAT IS IT GOOD FOR?
notanotherphony. 