ABANDONED

i wish i could be a kid again.  start all over again.  be free again.  free to do whatever i want when i want without guilt.  without shame.  without hurting anybody.  without being hurt.  i would play soccer again.  i would play hockey again.  i would play tennis again.  people tell me that i can still play those sports but it’s not the same.  i am old.  i was young.  i had hopes.  i had dreams. i love my Mom.  i wish I could still love my Dad but I can’t.  he died.  i miss him.  i miss his smile.  i miss his affection.  i miss his love.  i wish he didn’t die but he did.  this is LIFE.  you never know when and what will happen.  it just happens.  sometimes when you least expect it but you must move forward.  you must move on.  you only have one life to live so live it.  live your life.  not anybody else’s.  i wish i could be a kid again but i can’t.  i miss you Dad.