FUCK OFF AND LEAVE ME ALONE.

bored.  restless.  edgy.  horny.  angry.  bored.  bored.  bored.  scared.  bored once again.  life passing me by but unable to slow it down.  unable to move forward.  unable to sing.  unable to dance.  bored in a boring town filled with boring ladies and boring restaurants.  lights off by 9pm.  church bells ringing at 9am.  dumb men.  dumb rules.  cold.  dreary.  construction sights filled with construction workers building cheap homes and cheap dreams.
BORED.  night fast approaching and my one excitement for the day is blowing my load.  WOW I AM STILL ALIVE!!!
BORED…what to do?  what to do?  what to do?  money constraints.  law constraints.  marriage constraints.  life gets tougher when you get older as you have more rules and less freedom.  “Maybe that’s why I had that dream about being in a Nazi Concentration Camp.”  Trying to escape but never being able to.  another day passes off of my life filled with routines and coffee.  wine and toothpaste.  What happened to late nights filled with booze and broads?  hangovers and greasy breakfasts?  now it is bedtime at ten.  wake up at 6.  coffee.  get dressed.  walk Taylor to school and then more coffee and sit and stare at a crappy computer screen all day.  mix in a 10k run and more coffee.  maybe a walk with the family and then back to the house for an average dinner and then some reading and then some wine and kiss on Taylor’s forehead and back down to the couch to drink more wine and read.  maybe jerk off.  fall asleep.
BORED.  no bike.  too expensive.  no fun.  too expensive.  no girls.  no guys.  no life.  rules and regulations and then we die.  WOW…FUN. 
I am so fucking bored with fucking facebook and fucking phonies that I could/should rip the computer out of my wall and smash it to smithereens.  RIP COMPUTER.  1 million hits.  fuck I hate boring people.  FUCK OFF AND LEAVE ME ALONE!!!
Goodnight.
can’t sleep.  I can hear the neighbour to the right of me snoring.  I can also hear the neighbour to the left of me snoring.  we are a society filled with boring people saying boring things and living boring lives and they are trying to drag me down with them.  “LEAVE ME ALONE ADOLF!!!”
fuck me.