Jack Tait…are you still there?

I have finally picked up everyone’s clothes. now it is time to do the dishes. then the laundry. then cook dinner or get take-out. out to get meds. not mine this time. then walk the dog. then feed the dog. then pick up the dog from doggy daycare. then a few other errands. then to the gym. then pick up my wife from work. then answer some texts. then answer some emails. speak with Rogers again for a half an hour. still nothing really resolved after my epic three and a half hour talk yesterday. wife and daughter asleep. wife sick. daughter beside her. me…all alone upstairs. always alone upstairs. lonely days. lonely nights. living away from people I want to be around. wondering what the next ten years has in store. wondering when will things change for the better. wondering if things will ever change for the better. how much more does one man have to do to be “better”. exercise daily. reading daily. writing daily. trying my hardest to eat healthier daily. breathing daily. empathy daily. listening to other’s daily. helping other’s daily. no money but still spending a hundred dollars in pizzas for the striking teachers. waiting for monies owed to me. the wait is always longer than when one has to give. customer service no longer a “thing”.

living away from an urban center is difficult.

life is short.

boredom is long.

The Joker was great. some say “overacting”? Really? most performances are underacted and boring. finally a Hollywood movie with a point. with a purpose. with a heartbeat.

if one knows that exercise is good for them why wouldn’t one exercise?

EXTREME OWNERSHIP.

most have too many excuses.

look in the mirror.

another day down the proverbial sewer. what does proverbial mean?

humanity lost amidst extreme capitalism. money does not buy happiness. some money does but there comes a point where it no longer does. one car. two cars. three cars. one house. two houses. three houses. golfing. vacationing. dining. “I’LL TAKE IT.” beats sitting down on a shitty couch watching shitty shows in a shitty town. boredom reigns supreme.

life is sad when you have nothing to live for.

life is sad when you have no purpose.

life is sad when you have loads of energy. loads of passion. loads of intelligence. loads of charisma. loads of smarts. loads of friends. BUT SIT IN FRONT OF A TV ON A COUCH IN A SMALL TOWN.

it is going to snow on Saturday. WHO GIVES A FLYING FUCK.

doug ford and his puppet sidekick trying to bring back “the founding fathers” the way trump is trying to bring back “the founding fathers”. when will we wake up and stop these greedy puppets from running our towns. running our cities. running our provinces. running our countries.

most people bore me.

most people would rather make love to money than make love to human beings.

does life end in your twenties?

are we dying a slow death. when is the peak? when is your peak? why not make this year be your peak?

EXTREME OWNERSHIP.

STOP BLAMING.

MINDSET BIG.

there should be classes on mindsets. how much does French matter these days unless you live in Quebec or France?

uncomfortable.

hot.

sweaty.

shitty chair.

sore back.

restless.

bored.

need comfort.

need to stand.

need to move.

always need to move.

humanity needed.

but craziness also needed.

safety is boredom and boredom is boring. boring lives. boring towns. boring jobs. boring food. boring beer. boring conversations. boring leaders. boring hockey. boring baseball. boring debates. boring life.

boring life.

all work and no play makes jack a dull boy.

stretch the back.

open my eyes.

slow my mind.

life quickly moving.

1984?

2001?

2020.

I CAN’T BELIEVE THAT I HAVE MADE IT TO 2020.