really feel.

Friday has arrived and I have changed my mindset.  I have decided to stop watching all the doom and gloom.  I have decided to stop engaging in conversations that “work me up” but offer no solutions to bettering my life.  I have decided to focus on my life.  my health.  my family’s life.  my family’s health.  I want to inspire NOT upset.  I want to INSPIRE not judge.  I want to INSPIRE not demean.  I want to INSPIRE not condemn.  That is for me.  what I need to do.  what I want to do.  I feel my life is much better when I am coming at life with hope and inspiration NOT anger and aggression.  But with INSPIRATION comes challenges.  I first need to INSPIRE myself.  I need to look inward and see where I need to fix things.  I need to look inward and see what I want to do with my life.  I need to look inward to see what my skills are.  what my flaws are.  are the flaws worth fixing or better off accepting?  These are things that I need to do.  these are things that I can do.  I don’t need anyone else to take an inventory of my life and tell me what I need to do.  What I need to be.  What I need to change.  It starts with me.  A real deep and hard look inward.  A real deep and hard look at what I really want out of life.  what do I really want?  this is NOT easy.  It is harder when you have adhd among other things.  BUT I CAN DO IT.  I have many hours in a day to do this.  I can say that we all have the power to change and I firmly believe that but I will start by saying, “I HAVE THE POWER TO CHANGE.”  My life is in my hands.  EXTREME OWNERSHIP.

May 15, 2020.

run.

read.

write.

walk Murphy.

learn something new.

set a goal.

set a plan to achieve that goal.

set goals.

set plans to achieve those goals.

breathe.

love.

listen.

inspire.

connect.

avoid drama.

avoid the news.

avoid reading articles on facebook.

compliment someone.

compliment many.

relax.

drink a coffee.

eat a falafel.

drink a glass of wine (bottle).

listen to great music.  what is great music?  discover new music.

everyone was once a little child filled with loving parents and loving friends.

don’t give up that childhood love.

don’t give up that childhood fun.

don’t give up that childhood hope.

don’t give up your childhood curiosity.

don’t give up your childhood imagination.

don’t give up your childhood sense of play.

don’t give up your childhood dreams.

what were your childhood dreams?

what are your adult dreams?

what makes you happy?

what makes me happy?

feel.

really feel.

life.

soak it all in.