last day in LA. feeling rejuvenated. looking forward to being home. being with my family. being with my friends. seven days away seems so short but it seemed so long. maybe it’s because I’m getting old. maybe it’s because it’s too hot here. maybe it’s because it is too sunny. maybe it’s because I miss my family. my body feels better than yesterday. less drinking last night. more sleep. more excitement to return home. more peaceful today. a little wind. my beard is growing back. i have more confidence with my beard. i feel more ballsy and more anti-societal. i am comfortable in that look. people tell me that I look ten years older with my beard but I feel ten years cooler.
OWN ME.
I NEED TO OWN ME.
the sun is always out in LA.
i love the four seasons of Toronto. maybe Vancouver would be a great place to live. a great place to visit. a great place to work. a great place to explore.
my energy is coming back.
my left thumb is shaking. is that from too much booze? am I getting sick? too many pills? not the right pills? not the right doctors? not the right questions? not the right answers? not the right goals? not the right actions?
the mountains are beautiful.
my arms are tanned but my face remains red. i want to run. i want to run. i want to run. i want to be an elite runner. train hard. eat healthier. drink lots of water. read and write. have convictions but have compassion. now my right hand is shaking. how awful must it be to get a disease that slowly kills you. slowly kills your mind. slowly kills your body. a disease that you can do nothing about. a disease that slowly kills you and slowly kills your loved ones.
IF THERE IS A GOD WHY DOES HE ALLOW PEOPLE TO SUFFER SO MUCH?
SO MUCH PAIN.
SO MUCH SORROW.
SO MUCH DESPAIR.
SO MUCH HURT.
rape.
torture.
physical abuse.
sexual abuse.
murder.
wars.
disease.
poverty.
racism.
anger.
hate.
lies.
deception.
SNAKY POLITICIANS.
SNAKY SALESMEN.
SNAKY BOSSES.
SNAKY RULES.
SNAKY LIVES.
FIGHT THE POWER!!!
notanotherphony. 