the year is passing by quickly, once again.
same hopes.
same dreams.
same thoughts.
same struggles.
same shitty job.
same boring house in the same boring town.
CHOICES.
cute girl giving me a free coffee at starbucks. she always gives me a free coffee. what does that mean? does it mean anything? her dad committed suicide. i creeped her ig account. sleazy. me. not her. or opportunistic and horny. both? maybe i remind her of her dad. could be true. or maybe it’s absolutely fucking nothing at all. slow down my mind. slow down my body. slow down my thoughts. slow down and breathe. slow down and feel. look around. create the life that i want to live. politicians don’t care about me or anyone else for that matter. they just want to be voted in. make money. stroke their ego. same old lies. same old deception.
deep breath.
connect.
foggy eyes.
foggy brain.
slow down on wine intake.
find another hobby.
find another passion.
find purpose.
find my “WHY”.
FIND LOVE.
OR SEE THE LOVE IN FRONT OF MY FACE.
OR OPEN MYSELF UP TO LOVE.
TIME TO GO.
bye.
notanotherphony. 