knee still in pain. nobody understands the pain of another. it is difficult to do. difficult to describe. everyone has a different pain threshold. my knee is almost immobile and is very swollen and unusable. i know that there is something wrong with it but our healthcare system is in shambles and i can’t seem to get an mri. i cannot afford physio. i’ve seen one walk-in clinic doctor and one emerg doctor plus had an x-ray and an ultrasound and i can GUARANTEE that the experts have misdiagnosed my knee injury. similar to so-called expert psychiatrists and psychotherapists misdiagnosing my mental health issues.
ADHD?
SOCIAL ANXIETY DISORDER?
PTSD?
BIPOLAR?
NARCISSISTIC PERSONALITY DISORDER?
do doctors really care?
does anyone really care?
constant wars.
constant deaths.
constant suicides.
constant homelessness.
constant drug addicts.
we are becoming numb to our world.
we are becoming numb to our emotions.
we are becoming numb to our fellow human beings.
we chase money and chase possessions relentlessly but remain unhappy. remain stressed.
disconnected.
frustrated.
stressed.
poverty ridden.
debt ridden.
living in pain.
loving in pain.
accepting of the living and loving in pain.
everything can be bought.
a cost to everything.
it is 3:30am and i am about to start work in a small town with little culture and even less history.
WHY AM I HERE?
a real question.
why am i here?
is there nothing more out there in the world?
explore.
be curious.
explore and be curious the way that i explored and was curious as a little kid.
follow the light and follow the breath.
avoid the noise and avoid the rules.
my shirts are ripped but so were my dad’s.
dad.
mom.
dom.
a family torn apart at such a young age.
sad.
notanotherphony. 