healthcare for the elderly.

i may be coming closer to feeling better and healing my achy body and achy mind.

after another visit to my surgeon in regards to my painful swollen knee he looked at me in an “I GIVE UP MODE.”

he was at a loss.

he drained my knee, again, and then suggested i see a rheumatologist. he thinks i could have rheumatism or rheumatoid arthritis.

after my initial fear and frustration i left his office and went home. still limping. i quickly went on the computer and looked at signs and symptoms of this possible ailment.

very similar symptoms to what i was experiencing.

i booked an appointment to see my family doctor and then went through her notes after all of my blood tests were done.

the results were mostly good but there were two, CRP and FERRITON, where my levels were slightly high.

in seeing this, i researched these two and it looks like raised levels of both of these will cause inflammation in the body.

I AM GETTING CLOSER.

because of this my wife, she sometimes cares, suggested she buy a bottle of tylenol for arthritis and i took two before bed. my sore arms and sore shoulders felt much better.

i had a much better sleep.

today i woke up with less pain and less stiffness.

i will continue with these meds as i continue to ween off all other meds for various “made up” mental health issues.

I WILL ALSO RESEARCH MICRODOSING MAGIC MUSHROOMS.

I WILL BEAT THIS AND GET BACK TO MY SELF VERY SOON.

moral of the story…when i was younger i was helped more by the system and helped more by the doctors. they seemed to care. but now that i am older (old) i must do all of my own research and make sure that i follow up with my doctors as they don’t seem to have much urgency with the elders.

IS OUR HEALTHCARE SYSTEM FAILING DUE TO ALL OF THE CUTS BY OUR GREEDY POLITICIANS?

PROBABLY.

SNAKY SNAKES AND THE POTATO HEADS.

why am i here?

knee still in pain. nobody understands the pain of another. it is difficult to do. difficult to describe. everyone has a different pain threshold. my knee is almost immobile and is very swollen and unusable. i know that there is something wrong with it but our healthcare system is in shambles and i can’t seem to get an mri. i cannot afford physio. i’ve seen one walk-in clinic doctor and one emerg doctor plus had an x-ray and an ultrasound and i can GUARANTEE that the experts have misdiagnosed my knee injury. similar to so-called expert psychiatrists and psychotherapists misdiagnosing my mental health issues.

ADHD?

SOCIAL ANXIETY DISORDER?

PTSD?

BIPOLAR?

NARCISSISTIC PERSONALITY DISORDER?

do doctors really care?

does anyone really care?

constant wars.

constant deaths.

constant suicides.

constant homelessness.

constant drug addicts.

we are becoming numb to our world.

we are becoming numb to our emotions.

we are becoming numb to our fellow human beings.

we chase money and chase possessions relentlessly but remain unhappy. remain stressed.

disconnected.

frustrated.

stressed.

poverty ridden.

debt ridden.

living in pain.

loving in pain.

accepting of the living and loving in pain.

everything can be bought.

a cost to everything.

it is 3:30am and i am about to start work in a small town with little culture and even less history.

WHY AM I HERE?

a real question.

why am i here?

is there nothing more out there in the world?

explore.

be curious.

explore and be curious the way that i explored and was curious as a little kid.

follow the light and follow the breath.

avoid the noise and avoid the rules.

my shirts are ripped but so were my dad’s.

dad.

mom.

dom.

a family torn apart at such a young age.

sad.