Mom’s birthday yesterday. she visited friend’s in unionville. i stayed here in orangeville. tending to a dog. always tending to a dog. mom another year closer to death but still thinking that she’ll live forever. me unable to move. unable to decide. unable to make decisions. unable to focus. unable to love. unable to commit. unable to make a living. distractions everywhere. time racing. hot. clammy. three day hangovers and lost confidence. lost hair. lost youth. lost Dad. lost girlfriends and lost jobs. lost cats and LOST HOPE.
tomorrow will be a new day. first day as a crew member on a film set. constantly searching for something to bring me excitement. something to give me purpose. something to provide meaning to my life.
meaning and money.
money and clarity.
the government always after me for money but providing no hope. no plans. no help. rich getting richer. the poor getting poorer. slow down mind!!!
STOP BARKING MURPHY!!!
i need to go for a run.
i need to exercise.
i need to sweat.
WHAT AM I DOING WITH MY LIFE???
LIFE.
tell my story.
tell my story…my way.
real stories.
real people.
real emotions.
notanotherphony.
notanotherphony. 