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body still sore.

still need a massage.

i am so cheap.

i need to stretch.

stretch and restore.

slow and steady.

continue on my path of vulnerability.

the only way to live a full life is to be vulnerable.

open up.

tell stories.

make people feel good about themselves.

make me feel good about myself.

DON’T FORGET ME!!!

one life to live.

no judgements.

only compassion.

open heart.

open mind.

open soul.

tired.

cut out drinking during the week.

discipline.

focus.

become a better human being daily.

daily habits lead to long term fulfillment.

JOY.

PAIN LEADING TO JOY.

my trauma’s were meant to help me heal and then help other’s heal.

bettering my life and those around me.

help the less fortunate.

WRITE MY STORY.

TELL MY STORY.

AUTHENTIC AND REAL IN A PHONY WORLD DRIVEN BY MONEY AND GREED.

routines.

daily routines.

daily boredom.

daily coffees.

daily dog walks.

daily work.

daily jerks.

daily shoulder pain.

daily arm pain.

daily silence.

daily shits (not always).

daily urination.

daily gym.

daily morning pages.

daily “to do lists”.

daily reading.

daily lack of money.

daily brainstorming.

daily darkness.

daily struggle.

daily hope.

daily doing.

TAKE MASSIVE ACTION.

choices.

we are in control of our lives.

character.

core beliefs.

joy or pain.

we do things to bring joy or avoid pain.

some things we do bring pain and later bring more pain.

be aware of my daily actions.

be aware of what i put into my body.

be true to myself.

what do i want?

what do i want to do?

what brings me the most joy?

what are my skillsets and what are those skillsets good for?

what is my purpose?

what do i want my purpose to be?

TAKE MASSIVE ACTION.

again and again and again.

the distractions are endless.

the distractions are relentless.

stupid memes.

stupid people with stupid platforms.

lies.

deception.

ai.

how have we fallen so deeply into mindless sheep?

do people get together anymore for good conversation and good drinks?

why do we allow such utter buffoons to take up any space in our lives?

how is it that some people can look at drumpf and see him for what he truly is which is a greedy, entitled, racist, misogynistic, dumb, dull, fat, narcissistic pedophile who has ruined the united states and is trying to ruin the world while other’s look at him as a god like figure who is going to save the world from lies and corruption????

we are being played by the greedy pigs at the top of the food chain.

why can’t we see this?

it is so goddamned obvious.

constant propaganda.

constant headlines.

constant “breaking news.”

everything seems constant and, yet, everything seems irrelevant,

constantly irrelevant,

were human beings always so flawed?

why are there still so many slums in the united states?

why are there so many murders?

why are there so many people living in poverty?

what constitutes success?

is the united states a successful country?

is their extreme capitalism a successful system?

is everything just about money?

and the “united states” are not even united.

murders.

rapes.

poverty.

illness.

high crime rates.

high obesity rates.

rampant racism.

rampant sexism.

fake religions and fake smiles.

violence on the streets.

fat people in large hawaiian shirts.

oxygen tanks and walkers.

hunchbacks and robbers.

fake hair and fake lips.

fake tans and fake tits.

THE DIVIDED STATES OF AMERICA.

what a hunk of shit.

great sleep last night.

meditation before bed could be the answer.

that combined with a bottle of wine, sleeping pills, and antidepressants.

more clear.

more purposeful.

keep growing.

murphy is licking his balls beside me.

maybe that’s his form of masturbation.

4am work schedule is finally getting to me.

too early.

early to bed.

early to rise.

keep breathing.

PODCAST – DO IT.

eighty-five bucks for physio to learn a few exercises that i already have been doing seems far too expensive.

there is a cost for everything.

there is a cost to everything.

shoulders still sore.

massage on tuesday.

physio on monday.

no money everyday.

plan of attack.

brainstorm.

make it urgent.

make it fun.

make it possible.

LEAN INTO IT.

KNOW MY SKILLSET.

KNOW MY WORTH.

triggy snoring beside me.

dog licking his balls.

wife snoring.

me thinking.

always thinking.

always licking.

always snoring.

polar opposites attract.

help the less fortunate feel better about themselves.

they are the true fighters.

they are the true heroes.

not looking forward to work today.

dull guys with dull stories.

MASSIVE CHANGE.

MASSIVE ACTION.

again.

will i ever complete anything?

frustrated with my knee being swollen again.

acid reflux rearing it’s ugly head.

too many coffees.

too many pills.

too much wine.

where do i cut back?

daily discipline.

daily reminders.

daily check-ins.

i must be more aware of what, exactly, is going into my body.

more water. 5 litres.

less coffee. 3 tops.

write out daily habit tasks.

visually see them.

make them fun.

talk with people who get me pumped.

connect.

connect.

connect.

people confuse my honest writing with me being totally lost and totally in pain.

they are confused because they are not used to honest writing.

they read fake books.

they watch fake movies.

they listen to fake music.

they listen to fake friends.

ACID REFLUX – STOP IT!!!

aside from the gym, meditating, and walking murphy, i have one task today…GET MY YOUTUBE CHANNEL UP AND RUNNING.

one small step a day.

one small step for mankind.

focus.

complete one task.

PURPOSE.

CHARACTER.

FOCUS.

DAILY DISCIPLINE.

DAILY HABITS.

ATOMIC HABITS.

DO IT.