notanotherphony.

more shoulder pain.

more arm pain.

more neck pain.

painful body.

healthier habits.

healthier eating.

healthier routines.

mindfulness.

awareness.

create.

avoid.

jobs.

what jobs are out there?

what jobs do i want to do?

where do i want to live?

what excites me?

soup.

make soup.

eat soup.

soups of all kinds.

soup and sandwich.

sandwich and soup.

lessen the carbs.

lighten the body.

BE LIGHT.

BE FREE.

listen to my body.

listen to my gut.

avoid negativity.

avoid energy suckers.

BE ALIVE.

BE FREE.

blogs.

vlogs.

podcasts.

films.

books.

poetry.

create.

create.

create.

WHAT HAS THE WORLD COME TO?

today my shoulders are sore again.

i’m tired.

went to bed too late.

jerked off too late.

awareness faltering yesterday.

back to the basics.

leafs lost…ho hum.

last day of work for the week.

creaking door.

tired eyes.

too much HATE and too much blindness in the world.

blind to the bloodshed.

complicit in their behaviour.

i am human.

i am humane.

war.

what is it good for?

absolutely nothing.

need to get a smoothie today but they are soooo expensive so i should make one at home.

i will take a nap today.

a legitimate nap.

stretch and restore.

daily yoga poses.

daily meditation.

awareness. why are my shoulders so sore?

healthy body, mind, and soul.

stretch.

stretch.

stretch.

take muscle relaxants.

so many pills.

so many issues.

so little money.

so little time.

so many time wasters.

so few inspirations.

hang with the crazy ones.

talk with the creative ones.

be active.

be alive.

be present.

be real.

be authentic.

be empathetic.

be crazy.

be me.

be.

stories.

stories.

stories.

please tell stories.

no energy to speak with anyone yesterday. some days i can do it. other days i have to hide. i have less and less patience these days.

small talk bores me.

zionists bore me.

motivational speakers bore me.

work bores me.

i am limited on what doesn’t bore me.

i must find those things.

i am struggling to find the right pillow for sleeping. thick ones hurt my neck. my “pancake” one hurts my arms. i have decided to go with the “pancake” pillow.

it didn’t hurt me for ten years so there is some factual evidence to base my decision on.

when i’m at the gym i see old men with saggy balls. why don’t my balls sag? mine are tight and almost non-existent. they seem to be disappearing. is my sex drive finally slowing down? am i becoming too aware? too conscious? too understanding? too empathetic?

left side of my neck is stiff and sore.

right side is good.

arms feel better.

gym today for sure.

just a steam.

long walk.

long meditation.

long stretching session.

long conversations.

long laughter.

long life.

long days.

long nights.

longing for more.

searching for more.

understanding more.

feeling less?

feeling more?

less is more?

back to the breath.

always back to the breath.

taylor … i love you.

TGIF.

i’ve always hated that term.

THANK GOD IT’S FRIDAY.

people wishing their weekday lives away so they can get to the weekend and enjoy two days of chores before going back to the drudgery of their work lives. it doesn’t make sense. it never made sense.

GET A JOB YOU LIKE.

these same people wish their lives away to get to the magical age of sixty-five so they can retire and enjoy their lives.

sad.

i am bald. accept it.

accept the things you cannot change and change the things you can.

i just need to buzz my hair.

be like michael stipe.

done.

why try to look ugly?

keep breathing.

keep stretching.

keep reading.

keep loving.

healthy mind and body.

accept that i am married and that i have a daughter and that i am fifty-seven years old.

younger women do not find me attractive anymore.

i can be charming.

i can be talented.

i can be passionate.

i can be interesting.

i am not attractive to younger women. most women are younger than me. this is a problem.

getting older.

getting wiser?

getting old is not easy.

letting go of some great times with great friends.

can i even get hard anymore?

is it the meds?

is it age?

i am off the meds and hard again.

it was the meds.

my balls are literally shrinking though.

get healthy now or the next twenty years will be torture.

meditate.

yoga.

water.

healthy food.

exercise.

create.

love.

listen.

BE PRESENT AND CONNECT.

continue to surrender.

continue to meditate.

continue to love.

continue to open up the body.

stretch daily.

read daily.

daily inspiration and daily knowledge.

DO NOT LISTEN TO THE PUPPETS.

leaders ruining our world.

sick leaders killing and enabling the killing of innocent human beings.

LIES AND DECEPTION.

feeding the lies of economy while our leaders murder innocent women and children.

lost souls.

lost sick human beings.

loss of morals.

loss of love.

loss of empathy.

hitler.

biden.

netanyahu.

trudeau.

putin.

bush.

FAKE SICK LEADERS.

FAKE SICK HUMAN BEINGS.

we follow the wrong people.

we follow the wrong rules.

we follow the wrong systems.

money over love.

our moral centers covered in blood and money.

fake money.

fake lives.

PURPOSELESS AND POINTLESS LIVES.

BE PURPOSEFUL.

BE MORAL.

BE EMPATHETIC.

BE.